the narrow range

Everything just feel so different now. What am i doing? Why am i doing? Why am i here doing all this? Not that im aint enjoying what i am doing. Sweetheart's boyfriend changed ever since she went Aussie. He was so overwhelming to sweetheart nowadays kept sticking to her. I should leave em both in their sweet life. Now finally i felt how girlfriend being left out ever since boyfriends came into girls life.
Well, where is, my love? where is my boyfriend? i dont have 1...
i wish i wasnt that mature as the sense of more thoughts.
i wish i was blinded by love.
i wish i was stubborn just to get who i like.
if i gonna do that a spur moment of foolishness that will bring shit to my life, i know i will be dead again. i still back off but felt lonely at times.
It had been weeks didnt went out with Dad. He is busy today, didnt get to eat dinner with him.
sigh...