the narrow range

[silent.violent]
misuse of alcohol became a violent.
i hitted my head on the floor.i hitted the wall.
no more overdoages of alcohol nor even have a taste of it!
i hate alcohol.i hate myself after i drink.i dont know who is she.not me not her that i know.
and i hate it once again.i hated myself.i hated her.
the bloody next time happen its gonna b silent violent myself alone.there wont b the next time.its too scary to let her out.its so hard to calm her down.neither i can handle it.this time i made martin in the picture.im such a fool.i such a pain!im a shame.how inhuman!
My health its so weak now!
"i wanna go home.i doesnt like that places.im hungry.im full lotsa sorrows kept in me."
i made a vow.from today onwards im gonna change for good!3oAug2008.
too much to keep.i can hardly breathe but so much i gonna handle.
and i know im gonna make it
Baby you gonna be the one seeing the changes.
its a real hard knock on my own face.
i wish someone slap right on my face to wake me up.apparently i knocked my head to wake myself up!